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26Sep/080

The Financial Debacle — an Explanation in Layman’s Terms

HOW YOU CAN HELP: DECREASE YOUR CREDIT CARD DEBT
The fol­low­ing is an expla­na­tion of what’s hap­pen­ing for intel­li­gent peo­ple who don’t track this stuff — in the form of an anal­ogy:
There’s a fic­tional town called “Carville”, where the major­ity of peo­ple sell new and used cars. All the out­ly­ing towns come to Carville to buy cars, because the mar­ket is great for cars there — since that’s where everyone’s sell­ing their used cars.
Between 2002 and 2007, the five largest car deal­ers, Al’s Autos, Bob’s Beau­ties, Charlie’s Cars, Diane’s Diesels, and Eddie’s Engines, were going gang­busters. They were expand­ing their inven­tory, buy­ing up used cars left and right, and even load­ing a lot of these cars into trucks and sell­ing them in lots to smaller car deal­ers; that was stan­dard pro­ce­dure — the smaller deal­ers would buy these lots from the ABC deal­ers (that’s what they were called) and the smaller deal­ers would turn around and sell these “whole­sale” cars at higher prices.
Now the Carville town gov­ern­ment had a require­ment of all sell­ers. You could only sell cars if you kept at least 1 new car, or equiv­a­lent, per 100 used cars. The “or equiv­a­lent” was a rule our lit­tle town’s mayor made that said any car worth $15,000 or more was con­sid­ered a new car equiv­a­lent.
Based on that, the ABC deal­ers always kept a por­tion of their cars as new and equiv­a­lents, so that they could sell all those cheap used cars that were mov­ing like hot­cakes. The deal­ers even sold car lots to each other based on this sort of new car require­ment — so some­times, overnight, Al would call Diane and say “Diane, I’m short two new cars for what I have on hand, will you sell me a pair of new cars at whole­sale?”, and she’d agree — since Al had 98 new cars in hand for the 10,000 used cars he was hold­ing. She’d charge him a small fee, and everyone’s happy — no prob­lem there, stan­dard busi­ness.
Now, some­one real­ized that if you took apart 10 used cars and put the nicest pieces back together again, you’d end up with an “equiv­a­lent to new” car — one that could be counted as part of your new car require­ment. So the ABC deal­ers, since they had the most cars, started chop­ping used cars as they came in and mak­ing these higher value “equiv­a­lent to new” cars — which was cheaper than buy­ing actual new cars — how great is that?!
Before you know it, they’re not only mak­ing these “chopped new” cars for them­selves, they’re sell­ing them to each other for equiv­a­lency head­counts as well, and sell­ing them to smaller deal­ers as well — there’s a whole new kind of car here, and frankly since the value of a chopped new is so much higher than the pieces it’s made out of, the ABC deal­ers were focus­ing on chopped new cars a great deal.
For five years, it’s a wild ride. They real­ize that they can go after cheaper and cheaper used cars, chop them into just barely equiv­a­lent cars, and actu­ally cre­ate MASSIVE inven­to­ries of new or equiv­a­lent cars, so they can go out and get tremen­dous amounts of used cars — just vast lots — Al went from 10,000 used cars and 100 new cars to 200,000 used cars and 2000 (!) “chopped new” cars. He was buy­ing and sell­ing car lots to folks as far away as Indi­ana — mak­ing money hand over fist … and nobody ever expected it to end — because it wasn’t some bub­ble, it was just a great way of doing busi­ness.
Then one day, there was a car acci­dent — and one of the dri­vers was dri­ving a chopped new car. In the acci­dent, the chopped new broke into pieces and the dri­ver was severely injured. Peo­ple at first didn’t notice, until more chopped new cars started break­ing apart in car acci­dents. See, chopped new cars were great for reg­u­lar use, but they actu­ally were ter­ri­ble in a cri­sis — they col­lapsed like a card­board car, and peo­ple were get­ting hurt badly.
All of the sud­den, nobody wants to buy chopped new cars. They’re dan­ger­ous, they go bad at the worst pos­si­ble moment and can’t sur­vive a crash. So the chopped new cars lost their value. Well … that meant they were no longer equiv­a­lent to a new car — heck, they weren’t even equiv­a­lent to a used car. They were rolling junk, worth noth­ing.
So on a dark Mon­day morn­ing, the ABC deal­ers went out and looked at their vast fields of cars, and real­ized they had a major prob­lem. They had mas­sive counts of used cars (remem­ber Al’s 200,000 used cars?) and only a hand­ful of new or equiv­a­lent cars. So first, they called each other.
Al called Diane and asked if she had any new cars she could sell him at whole­sale — she replied that she was just about to call him and ask the same thing … or would he like to buy a few lots of used cars so she can drum up the money needed to get the new cars she needed? Well, nobody had enough new cars. In fact, all of Carville had maybe 150 real new cars and close to 1,000,000 used cars on hand. Nobody was going to be able to afford the tens of thou­sands of new cars needed to keep Carville alive. Now what?
So — here’s the anal­ogy explained:
* Carville is the Finan­cial Indus­try
* Each of the ABC deal­ers is a major Invest­ment Bank (Mor­gan Stan­ley, Gold­man Sachs, Bear Stearns, Lehman Broth­ers, and Mer­rill Lynch)
* The new car or new car equiv­a­lents is “Assets on Hand” — this is a require­ment that the Gov­ern­ment and lenders have for how much money you must have on hand before you can lend, or bor­row money. Clearly, when you go to get a loan, the bank asks you what you have for col­lat­eral — but what you may not know is that the Gov­ern­ment won’t let banks lend money unless they have a cer­tain amount in cash or cash equiv­a­lents — assets. These restric­tions are lower for Invest­ment banks — but “reg­u­lar” (or com­mer­cial) banks have very strict require­ments for how much cash on hand they must hold. (See Reserve Require­ments explained for more details)
* The used cars is the loans and other MONEY MAKING meth­ods all these banks and Invest­ment houses had out there. It’s the equiv­a­lent of how many things in your house you’ve bought on credit vs. with cash. Imag­ine if most of your entire home is bought on credit (if that’s the case, stop read­ing and fix that now) — that’s how “lever­aged” the banks got. Well, that’s how lever­aged they tend to be in gen­eral — but in this case the “ABC deal­ers” were bas­ing it on these crazy “chopped new” cars … which are…
* The “Chop New” cars are the CDOs (See Col­lat­er­al­ized Debt Oblig­a­tions for more details) that the Finan­cial Indus­try (“Carville”) was sling­ing around as if they were real assets (“new car equiv­a­lents”). The CDOs basi­cally are an arm­ful of debt — and the big mon­ster in this case is con­sumer debt, in the form of crazy sub-prime mort­gages (Mort­gage Backed Secu­ri­ties aka MBSs) wrapped up with a bow and treated basi­cally like money. That’s great, until we start see­ing…
* The car crashes are when indi­vid­u­als started default­ing on their con­sumer debt. These defaults were get­ting more fre­quent — which forced the Finan­cial Indus­try to review the MBSs and real­ize that these MBS “chopped new” cars fell apart in a finan­cial cri­sis — indi­vid­u­als with low credit rat­ings had been scoop­ing up vast amounts of debt, being put into these CDO/MBS secu­ri­ties — which were then sold to the major banks. When all the bad con­sumer debtors started default­ing on their crazy loans (those “half-caff with a twist” super sub prime ARM cheater mort­gages that sane peo­ple avoided), those indi­vid­ual loans made the CDOs that had them bun­dled, into garbage. All of the sud­den…
*The major invest­ment firms real­ized they had mas­sive amounts of loans out there, and their assets were next to noth­ing — they had no cap­i­tal, they couldn’t match Reserve Require­ments (where applic­a­ble) — and all they had were giant piles of these use­less CDO/MBSs filled with default­ing debt.
So what hap­pened?
Well, to date of this post — the mayor and gov­ern­ment of Carville real­ized they had to buy all these “chopped new” cars from the deal­ers, or all of Carville would fall. The hope is that the Mayor’s peo­ple can fix the chopped new cars, or at least hold them long enough for the good ones to be worth some­thing again.
“But that’s going to cost the town $700 Bil­lion”, some­one shouted.
“Well,”, said the Mayor’s banker, “if we don’t do some­thing, there won’t be any more cars to sell, and frankly, with­out cars, nobody can drive, and if you can’t drive, the farm­ers can’t sell their goods, peo­ple can’t get to the store, and the whole sky will fall. Folks will be trapped on their own farms, liv­ing off the land. We gotta do some­thing.“
…and where it stands right now is that the Mayor, his banker, and the town elders are all sit­ting down to fig­ure out how to get this money avail­able to the car deal­ers so they can get back to sell­ing cars, and unwind this mess.
What hap­pened to the ABC deal­ers?
* Lehman Broth­ers (let’s say that’s Al), failed. They’ve filed bank­ruptcy pro­tec­tion (they’re not closed, they’re just say­ing they can’t pay any of their cred­i­tors and need pro­tec­tion until they recover, you’ll see them again)
* Mer­rill Lynch (Diane) found a neigh­bor, who never got a big piece of the “chopped new” busi­ness. See, that neigh­bor is a truck deal­er­ship — and they’re required to have many more new trucks per used truck (let’s say 10 new trucks per 100 used trucks vs. 1 new car per 100 used cars). Since they have stricter require­ments, they were less exposed, and tended to act more con­ser­v­a­tively (usu­ally). Coin­ci­den­tally, since they’re kept in a more strict posi­tion and act more con­ser­v­a­tively, the town of Carville lends them money at a lower cost (The Fed­eral Reserve Sys­tem). These are the “real” com­mer­cial banks. That neigh­bor bought her for almost noth­ing. That neigh­bor is Bank of Amer­ica
* Gold­man Sachs and Mor­gan Stan­ley (Bob and Char­lie), went to the mayor and said they’d like to become truck deal­ers — pri­mar­ily in the hopes of get­ting their hands on that cheaper Carville town lend­ing that truck deal­ers get. That’s help­ing, but not a given solu­tion. “Old Jack”, the smartest man in Carville, saun­tered in from his ten mil­lion acre ranch and told Bob he’d give Bob some of the money he needed if Old Jack could have a whole bunch of things from Bob (includ­ing a 10% div­i­dend, which pays essen­tially $1.3 mil­lion a day). Of course, “Old Jack” is War­ren Buf­fett — what a great dealer :)
* Bear Stearns (Eddie) died early and was sold to JP Mor­gan months ago (not to be con­fused with Mor­gan Stan­ley)
But the saga con­tin­ues — as the Mayor and his peo­ple deter­mine how to deal with this — Wash­ing­ton Mutual, a “truck dealer” found itself so mas­sively extended in these CDO/MBSs, that they couldn’t meet the strict require­ments, and the Gov­ern­ment seized them and sold them ALSO to JP Mor­gan
What does the future hold? It’s gonna be more expen­sive to buy a used car for a while (get a loan), because everybody’s gotta make money and the prices will go up — and if the Gov­ern­ment does noth­ing, Carville will go bust and we’re all liv­ing in our farms alone. How’s your farm?
Your Farm:
Your farm is your per­sonal finan­cial sta­tus. You should be pri­mar­ily as debt free as you can be — your mort­gage, if you have one, should be very tra­di­tional and the low­est rate you can have — get out of your credit card debt, period.
Another thing about all of this is where it can get worse. See, there’s a LOT of Credit Card debt out there — and it could make things worse. If con­sumers are default­ing on their mort­gages, then they’re also going to default on their Credit Card debt. That’s going to cre­ate ANOTHER bur­den on the banks, and make the heavy lift­ing even heav­ier.
HOW YOU CAN HELP: DECREASE YOUR CREDIT CARD DEBT
How much credit card debt should you have? (None, but…) If the cash you have can’t pay the debt you carry, you’ve got too much. Stop invest­ing, stop buy­ing, pay off your cards now — it’s how we got here. You want respon­si­bil­ity? Yes, the ABC deal­ers are respon­si­ble, but the extreme credit card debt of con­sumers is the cause.
To do that is going to take an emo­tional shift. When you look at your flat screen TV, enjoy it — don’t then look at mine and say “Well, his is big­ger, I need a big­ger one too.” — stop look­ing at your neigh­bors and com­par­ing; just look at your­self and be happy, in other words — live off the land on your own farm, live within your means.
Bot­tom line? $10,000 cash is bet­ter than $20,000 and $10,000 in debt — for you, your farm, and our country.

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20Sep/080

The Transparency of the Invisible Hand

If you have read Adam Smith’s The Wealth of Nations or one of the hun­dreds of books that com­ment on that clas­sic, you’ll prob­a­bly know the term “the Invis­i­ble Hand”. This term ref­er­ences the out­come of a fully open free-market soci­ety that is dri­ven by self-interest.
But the annual rev­enue of every soci­ety is always pre­cisely equal to the exchange­able value of the whole annual pro­duce of its indus­try, or rather is pre­cisely the same thing with that exchange­able value. As every indi­vid­ual, there­fore, endeav­ors as much he can both to employ his cap­i­tal in the sup­port of domes­tic indus­try, and so to direct that indus­try that its pro­duce may be of the great­est value; every indi­vid­ual nec­es­sar­ily labors to ren­der the annual rev­enue of the soci­ety as great as he can. He gen­er­ally, indeed, nei­ther intends to pro­mote the pub­lic inter­est, nor knows how much he is pro­mot­ing it. By pre­fer­ring the sup­port of domes­tic to that of for­eign indus­try, he intends only his own secu­rity; and by direct­ing that indus­try in such a man­ner as its pro­duce may be of the great­est value, he intends only his own gain, and he is in this, as in many other cases, led by an invis­i­ble hand to pro­mote an end which was no part of his inten­tion. Nor is it always the worse for the soci­ety that it was not part of it. By pur­su­ing his own inter­est he fre­quently pro­motes that of the soci­ety more effec­tu­ally than when he really intends to pro­mote it. I have never known much good done by those who affected to trade for the pub­lic good. It is an affec­ta­tion, indeed, not very com­mon among mer­chants, and very few words need be employed in dis­suad­ing them from it.
Adam Smith — The Wealth of Nations
Smith’s pri­mary point is that when peo­ple work for their own inter­est in a fair, open mar­ket, they con­tribute to the over­all good of soci­ety in the process, not through their own coop­er­a­tion with oth­ers towards that over­all good — but by virtue of the eco­nomic process, the good comes about as if by virtue of an “Invis­i­ble Hand” guid­ing things.
In mod­ern “short speak”, if you look out for your­self, that’s gonna help every­one.
Well, there are a few huge prob­lems with that notion — not oper­a­tionally, but philo­soph­i­cally … prob­lems that don’t go into maudlin moral­ity or any other such notion — but sim­ply out­line that the Invis­i­ble Hand requires what I call trans­parency.
In the movie Wall Street, the char­ac­ter Gor­don Gecko says the famous line “Greed is good.“
As any novice investor or trader will tell you, greed and fear are the enemy when it comes to man­ag­ing your port­fo­lio — they cause you to make emo­tional deci­sions that under­mine your over­all return. So, in essence, (as we all know from our 2nd Grade Teach­ers), Greed actu­ally is not good.
But what hap­pens when a soci­ety, hav­ing been edu­cated to the very valid con­cepts of com­pet­i­tive advan­tage, and even Ricardo’s com­par­a­tive advan­tage — get it wrong and begin to equate Greed with self inter­est?
What hap­pens if, after read­ing two para­graph syn­opses of Smith’s ideas, an entire com­mu­nity, like the Invest­ment Com­mu­nity, gets it in their heads that Smith has cre­ated some sort of license to be a jerk, and cheat the next guy — since the process of look­ing out for your­self makes all nasty maneu­vers jus­ti­fied? We end up with the sort of deba­cle that’s been hap­pen­ing over the last 6 months.
Trans­parency, in my nomen­cla­ture, does not sim­ply apply to the pedan­tic demands by wounded civil­ians that the cor­po­ra­tions open their books, share the emails of their CEOs and allow us to see what they were think­ing. I present, instead, the idea that risk itself has an opac­ity — a qual­ity that requires us to ensure that what we know is every­thing nec­es­sary to be known. You can­not work for your own self inter­est if you do not under­stand what that self inter­est is. In the old say­ing, if you can’t see the sucker at the poker table, it’s you.
Con­sider the exam­ple of the dri­ver who does not know the bridge is out. He is dri­ving along, safely at the speed limit, when his wife calls and informs him that she is going into labor and he should race home so he can be with her as the baby is born. In his mind, it is sud­denly in his best inter­est to get home quickly, so he makes the choice to accel­er­ate — thus giv­ing him­self no oppor­tu­nity to respond to the miss­ing bridge in time and soon he’s swim­ming to the far side, hop­ing to call his wife from a soggy cell­phone.
Risk can­not be com­pletely removed, and as he accel­er­ates, the dri­ver increases the pos­si­bil­ity of that risk — but he is obliv­i­ous to that rela­tion­ship — he has dri­ven on this road a thou­sand times, he is a care­ful dri­ver — and while yes, dri­ving faster is a higher risk, it’s a cal­cu­lated risk he is will­ing to take.
So, the ques­tion becomes — how does one make the sit­u­a­tion more trans­par­ent for him, so that he can bet­ter rec­og­nize the choices he is mak­ing and truly make deci­sions in his own best inter­est? Such a ques­tion becomes the focus of reg­u­la­tors — the point of the exer­cise — and that opac­ity is their job to con­quer.
There are 5 places that the opac­ity against self inter­est can orig­i­nate. The first and most likely unavoid­able is ran­dom chance. We can­not rule out ran­dom chance — it will always be the Scepter of God — wielded at his Will and imper­vi­ous to our attempts to con­trol it.
The sec­ond most impor­tant one is our own igno­rance. If we do not under­stand what we are doing, we are that dri­ver blind­folded or refus­ing to read the signs by the side of the road. There will always be lunatic dri­vers out there — call them day traders and gam­bling spec­u­la­tors — but for the most part, if we can gen­er­ate a bet­ter and sim­pler method­ol­ogy for enabling our­selves to see clearly — but also to under­stand the details.
If our dri­ver sees a sign in Chi­nese, or is illit­er­ate — what will he do? He will act in per­ceived but inac­cu­rate self-interest, even­tu­ally hurt­ing us all in the process.
The third source of dan­ger is the igno­rance of oth­ers. That also would be reme­died by the same things that would save us. Oth­ers, pre­sum­ably work­ing in their own best inter­ests, may advise us to our own detri­ment. The man’s wife told him to move quickly — she was also igno­rant of the bridge.
The fourth source of con­fu­sion is the inten­tional act of oth­ers but not directly intended — there is the drunk dri­ver who drove over the sign in a stu­por — didn’t know what that bang was, and drove on. That dri­ver did some­thing to con­found us, but didn’t know it. That’s the largest group of peo­ple who inter­fere with the trans­parency of the invis­i­ble hand.
Finally — for the sake of this post — the fifth source of con­fu­sion is the inten­tion­ally evil per­son. Sadly, many peo­ple are equat­ing “get­ting over on the next guy” with self inter­est — which is fool­ish. If you make the world blind so you can be the one-eyed king — you will surely starve.
So — the ques­tion of my study becomes … how to con­trol the trans­parency — and how to know when you are truly see­ing a trans­par­ent sit­u­a­tion, and not just a mirage?

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11Sep/080

Rambling on September 11

iTunes has added a fea­ture that’s just great, at least for tonight. It’s called “Genius” and I like it. It matches songs you have to other songs you have — but more impor­tant, it matches songs you’re lis­ten­ing to at that moment to songs on the iTunes Store — which is frankly like crack.
I’ve spent the most money I’ve ever spent in one day on iTunes because of Genius.
I’m lov­ing the music vari­ety and the music exten­sion … it’s great.
Ok … back to 9/11 — thanks Osama, you’re still a sad lit­tle man who doesn’t know God at all.
Well, that’s done.
Now, back to my ram­bling … I have to ram­ble tonight — I’m tired but not enough to fall asleep yet — I’m gelling on this music, think­ing about writ­ing and just stretch­ing my thoughts and get­ting lim­ber here again.
I wrote a lit­tle dur­ing the day today — that was good … got a few facts down, raw stuff that I’ll have to edit the heck out of later — but good stuff all the same.
Ok — ran­dom phrases:
Blue skies at dawn don’t exist
A cut doesn’t have to be bad
Snowflakes just want to be the same
Birds don’t ever know the taste of candy
Bugs have no con­cerns about the dis­ap­pear­ing rain­for­est — the world is still a jun­gle for them
Dogs love peo­ple, who do we love like that?
Candy is an inter­est­ing topic — who cre­ated it any­way? Was it made as a lux­ury or as a way to pla­cate chil­dren? Are all lux­u­ries just ways to pla­cate the chil­dren inside of us? If not, why do lux­u­ries exist?
I think the Moun­tain Goats are a great band.
If you look into your own eyes on a day that’s happy, you never stop to watch your own expres­sion … you’re too busy being happy. But on the days when you’re dark, you see so far into the empti­ness that you won­der why you even need a mir­ror any­way.
Today, I’m ignor­ing my mir­rors.
If a lover gives you a chal­ice, don’t hes­i­tate — it bruises the grape.
There is more hay on the planet than peo­ple, there are more insects than hay, there are more mol­e­cules of air than insects, and if you took all that and expanded each one to the size of the solar sys­tem — you’d still be nowhere near the size of God’s mind — or the uni­verse for that mat­ter.
Love isn’t about flow­ers — it’s about the mus­cle, bone, and sinew that keep two peo­ple liv­ing together at the side of a river with noth­ing but a cloth to cover them and a bucket to carry water. Love isn’t about doves, it’s about pain, con­sumed grate­fully so oth­ers won’t. Love isn’t about choco­lates, it’s about tear­ing down this wall for­ever … the one that divides every­body from every­body.
Ok — I’m done ram­bling into my open mike … ‘night all… God loves you — don’t believe me? Well, what­ever is out there car­ing about you is God … and if you don’t think He’s there — help me tear down this wall.

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10Sep/080

Stoned by Vertigo

I woke up yes­ter­day with ver­tigo. Dizzy and not stop­ping. Crazy.
By noon, I was sea­sick and tired — but so what? I just stopped mov­ing.
Kathy and I got to the doc­tor by 4pm — I’ve got Vestibu­lar Neu­ri­tis … not as dra­matic as it sounds. The nerve between my ear and brain is inflamed in some way — so I get dizzy until the infla­ma­tion goes away.
Maybe God wants me to sit still and write — I think so. I’m flail­ing around with other things — lost a bunch of money in the mar­ket in one swell foop because I tried some­thing I didn’t under­stand … but again — so what?
I’m sit­ting here, music in head, bound to the ground until I get over the ear thing — which could be days, could be weeks.
Noth­ing to do but write, and then write some more. I think I’ll enjoy it. Or not. Who cares?
Like I have a choice — gotta do what the man in the sky says — so write I do.
Mean­while, the ver­tigo makes me feel weird — I’m def­i­nitely in a strange brain space. Gonna try to get to the office tomor­row — that should be amusing.

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6Sep/080

End of the Week

Do you ever just get to the end of the day and won­der what you did with it? I tend to do that and then look back and real­ize I’ve actu­ally done a lot of lit­tle things — pri­mar­ily because I’m not a fan of doing noth­ing — so by habit, I end up doing stuff.
Today — an empty day — I got BBQ and went to the con­struc­tion site of a friend’s house, chat­ted him up about my old church, net­work­ing, and his new house. I dropped water off for test­ing by a lab. I min­is­tered to a friend in Boston and prayed with him.
I took a call from the office about pur­chas­ing FC/SC fiber strands from our ven­dor, and approved the order.
I installed a new stock man­age­ment pro­gram, read the Wall Street Jour­nal, watched Fri­day Night Lights online through a piped feed to our flat screen TV, updated my daughter’s iPod, bought a new AC detec­tor at Home Depot, got a tea Misto at Starbuck’s, played with my friend Pat’s dog, watched Raiders of the Lost Ark with my son (to help make sure he skipped the scary parts), had our friend Pat over to din­ner, and wrote a back­ground arti­cle for a friend that’s writ­ing an arti­cle for the New York Times.
Then I orga­nized the songs on my iTunes, down­loaded a new app that sorts songs automag­i­cally, called my semi-estranged brother and talked about the rela­tion­ship between the Native Amer­i­can nations and the BIA, but I for­got to call my wife’s uncle Steve about com­ing over for din­ner.
Finally, I read all my emails (about 20), and wrote this post.
…just another noth­ing day — so why don’t I feel like I did anything?

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3Sep/080

Schooled

Tomor­row — the kids start school.
Kathy went off to bed.
I’m all alone with this blog again … so what? I wrote some­thing last night, a starter page for Rat’s Nest — liked it — handed it off to a few peo­ple, one read it and gave me some feed­back — the rest promised to …
So tonight, I’m blog­ging to get started — just kick it off … get my voice going — get my thoughts run­ning.
I may have finally got­ten to a pat­tern that can make me write — I think — maybe.
The point is that I start with music on head­phones, late at night, with the whole world asleep, and just sit down to this thing and chat­ter — then, when I’m lim­ber … I write.
How’s that? You get to read my warm up tripe and I get to write what mat­ters to me.
hmmm…
that’s about all I’ve got for the blog — besides the fact that it’s hard to get STARTED writ­ing on this thing — but at least it pub­lishes. That’s good.
I saw some funny stuff on Com­edy Central’s web­site about Obama’s accep­tance speech. He’s still my guy — but I’m a lit­tle wor­ried about his finan­cial plans. He wants to strap a lot of finan­cial bur­den on an econ­omy that’s strug­gling to stay stand­ing right now … he wants Uni­ver­sal health­care — which I think IS crit­i­cal, but at the same time, man­dat­ing that par­ents MUST insure their chil­dren sounds kind of naive to me.
He’s also look­ing to do some things to small busi­nesses that seem myopic to me … but what­ever — he’s still my guy thus far. That’s all I’ve got … I expect dis­agree­ment … my opin­ions are my own.


Ok — I’m off tonight — can’t write much — put a lit­tle here and there … but there’s not much to add — so I’m gonna go play the Wii… why? Because I can …

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2Sep/080

Titles of books I want to write

Here are a few titles of books I want to write:
Rat’s Nest
Rit­ual
A Per­fect Rain­bow Cir­cle and the Mean­ing of It
Faith
Dog
Empty Water
There are oth­ers — but well, wishes mean every­thing, right?
It makes me nuts — all I have to do is develop the habit to sit down and start typ­ing, like this — and before you know it, I’m writ­ing a book — but I need (NEED) to pub­lish … I don’t care about writ­ing things down — I care about other peo­ple read­ing them.
I want to write about chil­dren lost on the streets of the world, I want to write about broth­ers who don’t know each other, I want to write about a God who Knows us bet­ter than we want to know our­selves — I want to write about things that don’t mat­ter … because they’re the things that mat­ter the most.
Here’s a few blab­ber­ing phrases that I got the other day…
Seden­tary War­riors — that’s a coinage of every white-collar “killer” who goes to work, tears it up for his or her fam­ily, and never moves from the chair they work in.
Feather in a Storm — that’s just a nice turn of phrase… it’s prob­a­bly the safest place to be in chaos
So, those titles have to do with real books I have writ­ten in my head, but don’t want to write because peo­ple may not like them. What’s THAT about? Why should it mat­ter?
I can tell you … because there was a time in my life when absolutely noth­ing that came out of my mouth mat­tered to any­one — I was vir­tu­ally a piece of fur­ni­ture … “What will we do with him? Should we put him there, or over here?“
So, with that as a foun­da­tion — how do you get to a place where you live your every day car­ry­ing lit­eral (ok … minor pause … I’m lis­ten­ing to Duran Duran’s “Rio” — had to chair dance to the refrain :) )
ok… any­way… back to what­ever seri­ous thing I was say­ing… oh right — every­thing that comes out of my mouth car­ries lit­eral weight for other people’s emo­tions … if I put some­one down, it could be some­one who works for me, or some­one who thinks I’m pretty smart, or some­one I used to pas­tor, or some­one who looks up to me, or some­one who relies on me, or some­one who is check­ing in with me to get his or her life back on track …
Well, then don’t put peo­ple down. Duh. But what about the per­ceived slight? What about the one that they’re think­ing when I’m doing some­thing else? How do I nav­i­gate that? Well, then I have to be ready to (…her name is Rio and she dances on the saaaand…) think about what peo­ple might be think­ing about what I’m say­ing and be ready not to say it (!)
Wel­come to my world. That’s on a good day. Then there are the days where I blow out — I just can’t take the pres­sure any­more, and I just pop — I let every­one around me know that they suck because they’re not read­ing my mind as much as I’m try­ing to read theirs — and you know what? Then I get put in the “crazy angry” box — and every­body stops lis­ten­ing.
Soooo… now what? Write? Right.

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